Friday, October 17, 2014

Before

I've spent some time this week on social media sharing my before and now pictures. There are times now that I do more thinking about where I was three years ago. I feel like I have shared my deepest, darkest moments along the way. I know that when I celebrate, so many of you celebrate right along with me! The feeling is just unreal.... Knowing so many people are pulling for me to succeed. It makes a huge difference (kinda like a 90 pound difference....)! 

Last year, I showed you the pictures from Caleb's first beach trip. I still vividly remember how miserable that was. I am pretty sure that will forever be etched in my mind. I was still wearing my maternity swimsuit....and my child was almost two. 




On the road trip, my feet and legs swelled so much. We stopped to get some sleep on the way and I couldn't sleep because of the excruciating heartburn. Heartburn was a daily thing for me when I was overweight. I lived with it and didn't manage it well at all. I think I was mostly in denial.

In the early morning hours when all of the kids and my husband were asleep, the heartburn became too much. I laid there miserable hoping to just fall asleep. I didn't want to ask my exhausted husband to run out and get me some antacid medicine. Suddenly, I felt really sick.

I ran to the bathroom and vomited stomach acid and blood. I knew without a doubt I was killing myself. Slowly but surely things were way out of hand. I can remember sitting on the cold bathroom floor terrified. I kept thinking, "What have I done?!?" I cried alone on that bathroom floor, afraid to wake anyone.   

I cry every time I write about that night. It was part of my wake up call. That beach trip kicked off with me worrying every single moment about if I was dying. 

The next day I stood on that beach with my precious child and I felt shame. I silently compared myself to every single fit, beautiful woman on that beach. I constantly worried that my husband would prefer someone over me. But then again, I wouldn't have blamed him. My thought processes were so messed up. I worried about my fat jiggling, about my stretch marks, about turning a certain way to possibly look a little smaller in each picture. Y'all, that is no kind of life to live. 

I know without a doubt that some of you struggle with some, if not all, of the things that haunted me. It doesn't have to be that way. If I can lose a large amount of weight, anyone can. It just takes making better, healthier choices every day. Do I do it perfectly? Heck no! I love to eat! But the majority of the time, I choose salads over tacos.

I want you to succeed! I never want anyone to feel the way I did. I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. You've got this! 

If you want to follow along for happier moments tomorrow, head on over to Instagram! I promise it'll be better! 


Thursday, October 16, 2014

Freedom and Control

I don't ever want to feel like I am not one hundred percent grateful for my journey. I've made some huge progress with my weight loss. I've spent the past three years working not only physically, but mentally.

I understand some people are put off by the amount of work I put into my body. Yes, I watch everything that I eat. Yes, I workout with lots of energy. Yes, it is tedious. And sometimes I just want to be lazy. I figure I spent enough time not watching what I ate and sitting on the couch. Now is my time to do something about it.

I don't want anyone to walk away from this thinking that I may have had it easy or that the weight fell off. I'm not blessed with an amazing metabolism. I don't have tons of money to spend on all of the current weight loss trends and tools. I have a little boy that has a busier social life than I ever thought of having. I have a husband who needs my love and attention.

I could have every excuse in the world to let one or all of these things get in my way. 

I chose to take baby steps. I chose to do things slow. I wanted to do things the right way. I love cheering people on that can lose 40 pounds in two months, but I'm never gonna be that girl. The losses I have are slow and small, but who cares?? I still lose them!

I know everyone wants a quick fix with as little effort as possible. But I am here to tell you that it probably will not last. It's just not reality for your everyday kind of woman.

Over the past three years, I have completely overhauled my life. Who I was on the inside has changed just as much as the outside. I had to develop a new way of thinking about my health, my emotions, my priorities, everything.



Is it easy? Not all the time.

Is it worth it? Every single bit.



Can you do this? Absolutely! 

I spent too long living an unhappy, unfulfilled life. It wasn't until I took control of things that I actually started to live. It's not all about the weight loss. It's about freedom. I have the freedom to move my body without pain. I have the freedom to keep up with my little boy because of the extra energy that comes along with getting fit. I have the freedom to love my husband without shame of my body or insane mood swings.

Don't wait. You'll never find that perfect moment, the perfect timing, or the perfect situation. You can wait for every excuse in the world, but you don't have to. Now is the time. Make that first baby step today. Regain control and freedom of your life. You can most certainly do this! 

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Week One Macro Counting Progress and Questions Answered #IIFYM

A week of macro counting... What good would it be if I just told you about my progress? Why not show you??? Yeah, I totally agree... Let's do that!

I can tell more in my thighs and waist this week. My tummy isn't nearly as poochy. Yay for that!

I've been trying to get in around 90 squats each day. My booty can definitely tell! You don't have to do them all at once. Break it up and fit them into your day. Y'all are gonna think I'm crazy.... But every time you have a bathroom break (because I know you're drinking enough water, right) knock out 15 squats when you're done.


So.... There's a comparison for the week. I've lost four pounds which I think is awesome since I have been stuck for a while! 

Many of you had questions about macros. First, I'm still really super new at this. I am totally not an expert, but I'm trying my best to get in there and study everything I can. I am a nerdy researcher at heart so I'm trying to be very thorough. 

I can tell you what I know.... and what I'm learning. But remember this is a learning process for both of us! You also have to remember that my specific foods, meals, and macros will be very different from yours. Just as we all have unique bodies, our nutritional needs are just a varied. Please, please, please do NOT try to copy everything I am doing. It may be too little or too much for you! My activity levels are pretty different as well. If you want to calculate your own nutritional needs, please go to this calculator. Be honest, be accurate, and don't over or underestimate. 

Plug those requirements into My Fitness Pal and make it work! I've read that as long as you stay within 5 grams below or above your macro count, you're pretty much okay. Another tip is to measure and weigh everything! No guessing! My idea of one cup of something may be different than yours if we're eyeballing it. So, no guessing! 

So... now that you've switched to IIFYM are you eating more calories overall? Similar foods as before (but different ratios probably)?

I am most definitely eating more calories overall. I have gone from around 1200 to over 1500 this week. And you can clearly see in the above pictures that I have not only maintained, but toned more. I am eating very similar foods as before. Most of my diet consists of nutrient dense clean foods. In all honesty, I have to continue that. I feel better and that's really the only way I can meet my macro counts. It won't balance out correctly if I don't. Now I have worked in some less healthy foods this week without any guilt and still lost weight. I was able to eat my chocolate frozen yogurt because I planned for it. 

Can you share what you are eating?

Sure! But remember my activity levels, fitness goals, nutritional goals, the rate at which my body burns calories at rest is going to be completely different from yours. I work out four hours each week. Even my Zumba® classes and calorie burn are drastically different than a person taking the exact same class with me. This is completely tailored to me. I burn anywhere from 1200-1300 calories every two hours of Zumba® class. I know plenty of other ladies who wear monitors and they don't burn nearly that much. I have different instructors, styles, and intensity levels. I take every song and I go high impact every time. I push myself and don't take time to compare it to anyone else. My workout is for me. Not everyone can take it to the same energy level or they may be doing much more than I can.

For breakfast, I eat maybe two eggs and three egg whites scrambled and pineapple slices. Sometimes I eat a cup of 1% cottage cheese with pineapple. If I'm short on time, I will mix up a whey protein shake and grab a banana. Personally, I do much better throughout the day if I get lean protein and some carbs in early.

For lunch, I eat salads with tons of veggies and lean protein. The salad dressing makes up my fat macros. Green olives also help with catching up my fat ratio. I think I struggle most with getting healthy fats and protein in.

Dinner is normally lean meat and veggies. After I work out in the evenings, I'll grab a whey protein shake with 2% milk. That's pretty much it. I can vary any of those food choices depending on what's going on in the day. If I want a treat in the evenings, I budget my macros for it. What happens if I want more calories than what I'm getting? That means I have to step up my physical activity level. If I work out more often, I can eat more calories. 

What happens if you need more info about trying this???

Jump on Instagram and Twitter. Put in the hashtag #IIFYM and there are tons of people talking about it. I also look in the IIFYM.com forums. Pinterest can also help if you search "macros" or "IIFYM". 

Monday, October 13, 2014

Counting Macros: Week 1

So.... This whole macros thing? It's working. The first week has been tricky. Figuring out what exactly I can eat, how to fit everything in, and find the balance.... It's not simple at first. 

I can tell things are getting easier.

Since starting tracking my macronutrients, I've lost four pounds. I haven't been able to lose much of anything since July so this is awesome for me. 

At the same time, I don't feel neurotic about eating. I'm actually unafraid of eating over 1500 calories a day. In the past, I would freak out if I went over my 1200. I know that's unhealthy and it's not how I want to live. There comes a time that calorie cutting will work against you. I was there. 

Looking at my food choices over the week has been enlightening as well. It's no wonder I wasn't losing anything. Sure, I was eating "clean" and eating low calorie. But..... I wasn't eating the right combination of things. At times, I was overloading the carbs and then I would go periods of not eating nearly enough of them. 

There was no balance. 

My Fitness Pal has been my biggest support this week. I've tailored it to fit my nutritional needs and I have logged everything this week. Before I was just kinda guessing on things and that got me absolutely nowhere. 

Where am I struggling? 

Finding good protein and fat sources without overloading on carbs. It's kinda tough to work with just fats and proteins when everything seems to have carbs. I would have never guessed! I've been looking at #IIFYM on Instagram and I seriously want to eat the high amounts of carbs some of these amazingly fit people are eating. I know I have to put more work into my strength training before I can step out and do that. Their muscles have to be revving their metabolisms something crazy. I've just gotta get there. 

I admit that I'm totally a wuss. I don't do pain. I lifted weights with Ryan once last week....I was sore for three dang days! Um, I am totally not into that. I could actually see progress in my arms from just that one session, but it hurt! I mean, my muscles are literally tearing and rebuilding. It's supposed to be sore, but I am a weenie. 

I'm at the point of whether I want to suck it up and do it for the sake of eating more in general and getting more carbs in my diet. There's a pretty big reward in it. 

Ryan and I ate really well all week and then decided to balance things out by trying a new local frozen yogurt place. Turning this girl loose in a frozen yogurt shop with an insane number of toppings?!? Yeah, it wasn't pretty. But then again, I didn't really stress out this time. I worked my butt off for that treat so I enjoyed it with my guys. I knew that the very next day, I was going to buckle down and work towards my goals. 


Ryan and I are totally different when it comes to sweets. I prefer lots of chocolate, peanut butter, mint, and fruit. Ryan is all about the gummies. 


I never noticed it until last night, but Caleb is the perfect combination of me and Ryan. He starts with chocolate yogurt like his mama and finishes it out with the sour gummies like his dad. 


I like the freedom that has come with this. I like the predictability. I kinda feel like once I get the hang of it, this will be pretty easy to adopt as an everyday part of life. If I can get a feel for combining the right foods, I think I'll be good to go. I'm still doing a lot of research and studying on it.


Sunday, October 12, 2014

Circus 2014 and Comparison Pictures

This weekend we met up with some of our friends to go to the circus. We've been every year since 2011 and Caleb absolutely loves it. It's a really long show so keeping him entertained can be exhausting! 




The proceeds go to the Alhambra Shriners and the company we work for is a sponsor. They put on a great show for the kids and we always enjoy it. 

Since we've been going for a while, I have plenty of weight loss before and now pictures. It's amazing to see the difference. Sometimes I'm still in awe of how far I've come. I feel like I've worked hard and I look forward to seeing more progress as I go. 



I can remember seeing this picture when we got home from the circus for the first time. I knew I had a weight problem, but I wasn't motivated to really do anything about it. I'd try to lose weight for maybe a week, not see all the weight magically fall off overnight, and give up. It was a cycle I was trapped in.

Weight loss isn't just getting up and working out or following such and such diet. It's mental. Day in and day out, I have to stay committed to my goals.


At this point, I'm mostly thankful. I am so very grateful for this journey. Some days I struggle. Some days I get so frustrated. There's plateaus that maybe last four months. But in the end, I had this experience. So many people around me are struggling and losing their own weight loss battles. Day after day I see people so aggravated with trying and failing.

I honestly don't know why I'm different. There's no secret to this. So many of you have written me asking for advice. At the end of the day, it feels like I disappoint some of you. There's no quick fix. There's no miracle.


But it's very possible. Even for us busy moms with busy kids and busy families. Even if we don't have a ton of money or time.

Yes it's hard work, but I can promise you with my whole heart that every single bit of it is worth it. It's worth saying no to eating out often. It's worth taking the time to fix nutritious meals at home. It's worth working out even if I'm tired sometimes.


Do it for you. Do it for the amazing feeling you get when you slide into those goal jeans and realize there's plenty of room to button them. Do it for the feeling of accomplishment you get when you can physically do something that seemed so impossible before. Do it for the looks you get from your husband when you walk by. Do it for your overall health and well being. 

If you don't have any other reason to do it, just look to those little faces that love and adore you. Do it for them. Your children are watching you. They copy you. 

Be healthy. Love your body. Embrace your journey. It means more to them than you'll ever realize. 


There are days that I'm tired of choosing to live healthy. Some times I want to say forget it and pig out on every unhealthy food around. But then I see my family and I know what I have to do. They're following my example and I refuse to let them down. On the toughest days, I do it for them.



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