Friday, October 24, 2014

Getting Back on Track

My body is super sensitive to junk. Our beach trip was fantastic, but I am paying for it now! 

I did not count macros, calories, or anything on vacation. I believe one cheat meal a week isn't going to wreck my progress, but four days of junk sure did! 

I had an 11 pound difference between the morning we left for vacation and returning home. 

I've mentioned it several times that I am always going to have to work to keep my weight in check. I can pack on pounds like you wouldn't believe. As long as I can accept that fact, I can win the battle. I'm never going to be one of those people who can eat anything they want without a care in the world. And that's okay because I know exactly what I have to do to achieve my goals. 

When we got home, I immediately began tracking my food. I felt so much better too! I didn't feel as sluggish and bloated. I've dropped four pounds in the past two days. I know a lot of it is water retention and it will come back off. So I'm not stressed at all! 

I also jumped right back into my workouts as well. I taught two hours of class plus I'm attending a two hour dance party to raise money for the Livestrong cancer foundation. It will be tons of fun and a great workout. 

 I believe losing weight, eating healthier, and staying active is so much easier when I can stick to a schedule. As long as I have everything planned out, I can easily stay on track. If you're struggling to lose weight, make it a point to plan your meals and schedule your workouts. Once you get in the habit of doing it you'll find it so much easier to accomplish everything. 


Thursday, October 23, 2014

Beach Vacation 2014

I'm pretty sure I take more pictures than the paparazzi. I apologize in advance if you didn't come here today to see a ton of them. 


This year we were blessed with a big family vacation. My little niece and nephew had never been to the beach, so we all decided to remedy that! All three kids were in our car and it was an adventure...we had no idea Zoey got carsick when she colors, but we totally do now. Traveling with two four year olds and a baby was interesting. I have a ton of respect for those of you with multiple kiddos! 


The condo we stayed in was absolutely fabulous. It was on the bottom level, overlooking the ocean on three sides. Pure happiness!


 This year at the beach seemed so much easier with Caleb. I felt a lot more at ease with him playing in the water because he can swim now. I wasn't a complete nervous wreck this time around.



We found so many pretty shells. I think the early morning beach walks are some of my favorite times.





We had perfect weather! It was chilly in the evenings, but warmed up during the day.






Ryan and Caleb did some surf fishing. Ryan actually caught two sharks while we were there.
















We had such a nice trip and can't wait to go back!


Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Take The Step

91 pounds.... It changes a person inside and out. At this point, I just have this overwhelmingly grateful feeling for it all. My body isn't perfect, but I'm happy. I'm healthy. I'm stronger. 

I didn't judge my body against one single person's and that is one of the most freeing feelings in the world. I didn't compare. And I was so proud of that. I didn't spend time critiquing my flaws or worrying about the things I wanted to work on next. 


I spent time with my family and enjoyed the little things. Three years ago, I was so consumed by my weight and poor health that I couldn't focus on the better things. 



I'm free from being stuck in that place. I'm free from obesity and it feels so amazing. There's nothing I want more than for those of you coming here today to have that freedom too. 

It starts with that first step. It starts with you choosing to put your health first. It's not about looking great in a bikini. It's about taking control of your health and fitness. It's about being comfortable in your own skin. It's about being content and happy. 

Choose one thing you can do today to help you reach your goal. Give up soft drinks for water. Or maybe trade your favorite hamburger for an awesome salad. Instead of watching a show on TV, get outside and take a walk with your kids. 

 Make one healthy new change each week. Build upon each healthy choice and you'll get there. 

Friday, October 17, 2014

Before

I've spent some time this week on social media sharing my before and now pictures. There are times now that I do more thinking about where I was three years ago. I feel like I have shared my deepest, darkest moments along the way. I know that when I celebrate, so many of you celebrate right along with me! The feeling is just unreal.... Knowing so many people are pulling for me to succeed. It makes a huge difference (kinda like a 90 pound difference....)! 

Last year, I showed you the pictures from Caleb's first beach trip. I still vividly remember how miserable that was. I am pretty sure that will forever be etched in my mind. I was still wearing my maternity swimsuit....and my child was almost two. 




On the road trip, my feet and legs swelled so much. We stopped to get some sleep on the way and I couldn't sleep because of the excruciating heartburn. Heartburn was a daily thing for me when I was overweight. I lived with it and didn't manage it well at all. I think I was mostly in denial.

In the early morning hours when all of the kids and my husband were asleep, the heartburn became too much. I laid there miserable hoping to just fall asleep. I didn't want to ask my exhausted husband to run out and get me some antacid medicine. Suddenly, I felt really sick.

I ran to the bathroom and vomited stomach acid and blood. I knew without a doubt I was killing myself. Slowly but surely things were way out of hand. I can remember sitting on the cold bathroom floor terrified. I kept thinking, "What have I done?!?" I cried alone on that bathroom floor, afraid to wake anyone.   

I cry every time I write about that night. It was part of my wake up call. That beach trip kicked off with me worrying every single moment about if I was dying. 

The next day I stood on that beach with my precious child and I felt shame. I silently compared myself to every single fit, beautiful woman on that beach. I constantly worried that my husband would prefer someone over me. But then again, I wouldn't have blamed him. My thought processes were so messed up. I worried about my fat jiggling, about my stretch marks, about turning a certain way to possibly look a little smaller in each picture. Y'all, that is no kind of life to live. 

I know without a doubt that some of you struggle with some, if not all, of the things that haunted me. It doesn't have to be that way. If I can lose a large amount of weight, anyone can. It just takes making better, healthier choices every day. Do I do it perfectly? Heck no! I love to eat! But the majority of the time, I choose salads over tacos.

I want you to succeed! I never want anyone to feel the way I did. I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. You've got this! 

If you want to follow along for happier moments tomorrow, head on over to Instagram! I promise it'll be better! 


Thursday, October 16, 2014

Freedom and Control

I don't ever want to feel like I am not one hundred percent grateful for my journey. I've made some huge progress with my weight loss. I've spent the past three years working not only physically, but mentally.

I understand some people are put off by the amount of work I put into my body. Yes, I watch everything that I eat. Yes, I workout with lots of energy. Yes, it is tedious. And sometimes I just want to be lazy. I figure I spent enough time not watching what I ate and sitting on the couch. Now is my time to do something about it.

I don't want anyone to walk away from this thinking that I may have had it easy or that the weight fell off. I'm not blessed with an amazing metabolism. I don't have tons of money to spend on all of the current weight loss trends and tools. I have a little boy that has a busier social life than I ever thought of having. I have a husband who needs my love and attention.

I could have every excuse in the world to let one or all of these things get in my way. 

I chose to take baby steps. I chose to do things slow. I wanted to do things the right way. I love cheering people on that can lose 40 pounds in two months, but I'm never gonna be that girl. The losses I have are slow and small, but who cares?? I still lose them!

I know everyone wants a quick fix with as little effort as possible. But I am here to tell you that it probably will not last. It's just not reality for your everyday kind of woman.

Over the past three years, I have completely overhauled my life. Who I was on the inside has changed just as much as the outside. I had to develop a new way of thinking about my health, my emotions, my priorities, everything.



Is it easy? Not all the time.

Is it worth it? Every single bit.



Can you do this? Absolutely! 

I spent too long living an unhappy, unfulfilled life. It wasn't until I took control of things that I actually started to live. It's not all about the weight loss. It's about freedom. I have the freedom to move my body without pain. I have the freedom to keep up with my little boy because of the extra energy that comes along with getting fit. I have the freedom to love my husband without shame of my body or insane mood swings.

Don't wait. You'll never find that perfect moment, the perfect timing, or the perfect situation. You can wait for every excuse in the world, but you don't have to. Now is the time. Make that first baby step today. Regain control and freedom of your life. You can most certainly do this! 

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