Friday, August 30, 2013

So....What's Up?

This week has just felt so very quiet to me. Just very blah....

I've been having some rough blood sugar drops lately. It's lasted over a week and I am just absolutely worn down. When I began feeling ill, I automatically looked at my food choices. When I tried controlling it through my diet and it didn't work, I knew it was time to see my doctor. I went to my doctor at the beginning of the week. He took a look at my food journal and was pleased with my nutrition.

That was such a relief to me! I've done a lot of research about my food choices and it's always great to hear from your doctor that you're doing things correctly.

We've done quite a bit of blood work, an EKG, and a three hour glucose test to hopefully see what's going on with my body. My days are especially rough right now and I will be so grateful to get this figured out. I'm just not really myself.


The glucose test was yuck! 
Three hours, sugary orange junk, and four blood draws. 
Not my idea of a good time.
They actually had to dig for a vein on one arm. 

When Caleb saw my arm he asked what happened. I told him "Shark bite" and you should have seen his face! Luckily he realized I was messing with him....

I have had such a range of emotions over feeling so miserable. I think it's just been such a long time since I've actually felt rough and there's nothing I can do to change it at this moment. I spent years feeling miserable due to health problems and it's hard to go through some of that again. I just thought that was behind me now.

This just feels like a set back. That makes me cry....get angry....stay frustrated. I can't focus on losing any weight because it's an almost constant struggle to just feel okay. My automatic reaction is to eat junk, but I know that won't help at all. I've never had a moment this strong that I wanted to put my healthy efforts on hold. Everything rational tells me that continuing to eat healthy is going to be the only way I get through this gracefully. But my emotions are screaming at me to just feel better by running to my comforting carbs and sugar.

Writing here has always been my therapy through this journey, but I have struggled several times this week to write this. I'm usually upbeat and positive so it's hard for me to feel like this right now.

My Zumba group asked me to share my weight loss story with them and it was just what I needed at the time. I needed the reminder of how far I've come. I just can't give up. I am just so grateful for that little push this week when I so needed it.

I will get all my test results next week. I'm just ready to get something straightened out and move forward.

13 comments:

  1. I hope that your health begins to pick up. It is a struggle to eat well and have the energy to go workout without having medical issues so I am sure it's been super hard to do so with issues.

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  2. I've been there a few times. It's tough. Hang in there! Hope you get to feeling better.

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    1. Thank you so much for the encouragement!

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  3. I'm so sorry for your health woes and the emotional toll it's taking on you. Although your doctor feels your nutrition is fine, you might want to consider reading Wheat Belly, and seeing what (and why) even 'whole grain wheat' can do pretty negative, toxic things to us, esp. with blood sugar. Many doctors just aren't up to snuff with new medical findings. If you research that, and paleo/primal, you will find a host of studies and many testimonials to the benefits of giving up all grains. Just trying to help.

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    1. I will look into that. I am willing to try anything to feel better! Did you ease into it or go cold turkey?

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    2. The first time, in December, I caved after about 4 days. I think I had 'carb flu' (sometimes a reaction one gets when they first give up grains...it's actually a clear body signal that you NEED to do it.). After I ate a tiny bit of crackers, I was okay. So I kept very very low grains through the holidays, then attacked it with gusto, all in, in January, and never looked back. I do allow 4 (not 3, not 5 LOL) onion rings 2-3 times a month, but that is literally the ONLY grains I eat. Really Wendy, I'm not saying it will cure you of any potential disease like diabetes, or hypoglycemia, but I will promise you it will help improve the situation at the very very least. There is such an amazing abundance of information/proof now. Try Mark's Daily apple.com, and go to the tab that says 'start here', and well, start there. You have been eating really well, but there is an established (though anti-establishment, if you know what I mean) alternative to make your health and eating even better/more ideal. :)

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  4. So sorry to hear this, Wendy. Lots of thoughts a prayers! Hope you get some answers and start feeling better soon.

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  5. When my blood sugar is off, I turn into the "Wickedy Witch". I appreciate the recipes in Mark Hyman's Blood Sugar diet cookbook! You are doing a lot of that already. Keep your focus! You can whip this!

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    1. I act all kinds of ugly when my blood sugar dips! :)

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  6. Give yourself some grace. Stop obsessing. You know what to do and are doing it. Even your doctors are happy...big plus. Now, (again) STOP. You are on the right track. Give your brain a break.
    You are NOT going through this again you are meeting a new and different challenge. If everything was always the same life would get boring and you would have nothing great and inspirational to share and encourage ME. So...because everything is really about me...STOP.
    Your story and pictures are so encouraging for this girl who is 44 and finally starting to try and get "it" under control.
    Your blog shows how beautiful you are on the inside, so important, and your pictures show wow and amazing.
    This moment in life another great and wonderful challenge to conquer.

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    1. Thank you so much, Marla. I'm just ready to find the problem so I can tackle it. The whole waiting for results thing is driving me nuts! I'm a problem solver and it's hard to wait.

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