I don't know why I waited until I was nearly 30 to push my body. I spent all of these years having no idea exactly what I could or could not do. Seriously. I feel as though I have just wasted so much time!
And I find humor in the fact that I have waited until my late 20's to actually be in the best shape of my entire life.
This week I have completely blown my "better" times away. The most I pushed myself to run (ever) was two miles. And I didn't push myself. No, my track coaches did that for me. There's no way I ever considered myself a distance runner and I wasn't going to do it on my own! And that was 15 years ago....
I never understood why anyone wanted to run longer than a mile! It just seemed like the perfect way to torture yourself.
This week I found myself at the track alone. Just me and some music.
So I started running a little. I ran some the previous week, but it wasn't anything to brag about. I figured I'd just do what I could and see how far I got.
I started with a mile. I didn't die so I just kept going. I'd jog and then I'd walk a little. Over and over.
I got to the three mile mark and looked down at my phone.... 34 minutes. Who knew?!
So I just kept going... It wasn't graceful. It wasn't pretty, but it felt great.
Ryan joined me around the four mile mark and we kept going.
I ended up mostly running, with a little walking, six whole miles!
I'm not a pretty runner.
As I was finishing the last mile, I just could not believe that I was capable of it. I've never in my entire life walked six miles let alone run anything close to that!
Then something dawned on me....
The beauty of the whole running thing.
Two years ago, I could not walk two miles with so much extra weight on my body. I never bothered to find the time to try. Sure, I could run when I was younger. But I never took the time to appreciate the ability to do it. I've been on the other side of this. I've been so big and heavy that I could not do simple physical things in life. I've been to the point that I couldn't tie my own shoes. Here I am now actually running. I can appreciate the joy that comes with this because there have been times in my life that my body couldn't do it.
When I started losing weight, I couldn't quite grasp why all of these people were raving about running. Here they were training for this or that. I thought they were great, but I just knew that wasn't for me. I had it all set in my mind that was never going to be for me.
All of those preconceived notions are now thrown up in the air. I've changed so much more than I ever imagined was possible. If you're half way through your journey or just beginning, don't close your mind off to all of the possibilities. You are changing and growing into a completely different person! You will try and maybe even love things that you never imagined for yourself.