Sunday, April 27, 2014

Confess Sesh


I confess.....
  • My kid concerns me sometimes. He comes up with these off the wall things and embarrasses me to no end.... Said things are totally not appropriate to be repeated here. 
  • My blog is where I pour everything out. All the random thoughts....all the things I struggle with....everything I'm working through as a person. I don't normally do that in real life. I feel like there's this great divide between people I actually see every day and my blog. It's tough realizing that some friends and family do actually read here... 
  • My husband doesn't read my blog. At all. Maybe like once ever...because I begged for his opinion maybe once. 
  • My husband is my complete opposite. I honestly don't know how or why that even works. 
  • I struggle with taking control of my life. In major decisions, I normally don't put my wants, wishes, or needs above others. Most of the time, I'm completely at peace with that. Other times....notsomuch. 
  • I desperately want to write a book, but I have no idea what I'd put in it. I write everything out here and it's totally free. But still....I truly, madly, deeply want it. 
  • I have this huge fear of rejection. Like no one would buy said book, or no one shows up to a Zumba® class I'm co-teaching, or once I get past the shyness new people really don't care for me at all. Totally dumb, but completely true. 
  • Caleb is my mini-me. We're coming to terms with that. 
  • Sometimes I wanna be the carefree person who completely goes with the flow. Then I remember I'm OCD, bossy, totally in charge and micromanage everything. 
  • I automatically love anyone who lets me be me.....who challenges me....who accepts me (quirks and all)....and puts up with my chaos.
  • I am a hopeless romantic to the core. I just can't seem to help myself. 
  • I naturally attract old fishermen. For some odd reason old guys who love fishing and bass boats try to charm me. I think it's adorable...
  • My husband doesn't seem to understand that I'm not a prissy girl. He seems to think I'm not capable of heavy lifting or something...
  • I have zero patience at times. Just the way I am... 
  • I have a PJ fetish.... Like two whole drawers full of them. Anything snuggly is awesome...
  • You can always tell how I'm feeling by what I'm listening to. My choices in music directly reflect my moods/thoughts/whatever....

There ya go.....

2 comments:

  1. I think all women struggle with these doubts from time to time, especially girls like us who have had long weight loss journeys - 100 lbs total for me!!! It's normal for us to feel like people aren't going to like us. I used to be a people pleaser - I was so concerned about doing whatever I could to make sure others like me, that I neglected myself, hence the weight gain. I finally had the Aha! moment that the people who don't like me for whatever reason aren't worth the time and effort of worrying about. I had to learn to surround myself with the people who do love and care for me and leave the rest behind me. Sure, you are going to meet some people you just don't click with and that's ok. Enjoy the experience of meeting them and move on. You'll sleep much better without all the worry.

    I am also in the process of brainstorming ideas for a book. Deciding which idea has enough "pulp" to fill a book is difficult. If you are interested, I have some great resources I'd be happy to share with you and hopefully give you that jump start! And don't worry - my husband doesn't read my blog either. ;)

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    1. I would love for you to share your resources! That would be amazing!!! Thank you so much. My email is dailydoseofdelsignore@gmail.com. I'm totally lost so far... :)

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