After this weekend, I realized something.... My booty totally doesn't take up a whole pontoon boat seat anymore.
The comparisons never get old...
Every time I see side by side comparisons of pictures, I am thrilled.....thankful....and determined.
I remember cringing at the thought of someone taking pictures of me at random. Before, I would sit up super straight, try to suck in my belly as much as possible, hold my head just so. Pictures were hardly spontaneous and random. Then I'd sort through all of them and tried to pick out the ones that made me look a little bit skinnier. I'm here to tell you....there weren't many!
This past weekend, I had a couple of cameras pointed at me. I didn't worry about it. Other than the occasional crazy look on my face, I don't cringe at the pictures. I didn't spend tons of time positioning myself to look fabulous or skinnier. I was free to enjoy the day and everyone around me. I was free from self-conscious thoughts.....self-doubt.....low self esteem. I was just able to be me. And that's beyond fabulous!
Before I died at the thought of a backside picture.... My dad caught one on Saturday. I was all like, "Hey! It totally isn't taking up the entire picture!" And that, my friends, total self acceptance.
I think for the first time in my entire life, I have found contentment with my body. No, it isn't perfect. But, I like the way things are.