I've got so much to write, but the timing isn't right just yet. I'm bursting with things to say and I just can't put everything into words. My heart is filled with so much and it just won't translate here. Things I need to say.... things I just can't say.
Have you had those moments in life that you just knew big changes were coming? You can see it happening and you're in limbo waiting?
At the beginning of the year I had plans, goals, and a solid sense of who I was becoming. Bit by bit it has slowly been redefined....torn apart....partially rebuilt in a totally different way.
All in an amazing way, but it's change nonetheless.
My plans? Completely flipped upside down and shaken up. I have plans without time limits.... My goals? Somehow the reset button was pushed and now I have completely different ones thrown at me. Who I am? Not even fully sure now. These things are changing me, molding me into someone I've never imagined I could be.
Three years ago, opportunities like these would have been so far out of my reach. They are bigger than my wildest, most optimistic dreams. I've fought some things because I don't do well with change, but I think I am ready to embrace it all now.
I think I'm mostly scared of the change because it's eerily close to what I think I was always supposed to be and do. Part of me has been resisting for about four months. Now I'm just ready to accept the changes and push forward.
I am beyond blessed with everything happening in my life. I am thankful for my family who has pushed me to greater things. They keep supporting me....coaching me....celebrating with me.....loving me through it. I need each of them in my life to keep me balanced.
As soon as I can share these big changes, you better believe I'm comin' here to do so!